Bad couple of days...God must hate me

[myclone]

Well past week has just sucked! Last Thursday I got up to find a snake in my bathroom floor. Yes a live snake. Black non the less however a snake and I hate snakes. I think Dave told the story of me and snakes on here some place. I called my neighbor to come help me out at 8 am. I have no idea how it got in...I just know it got in. Friday, a/c that I just paid 680 bucks to have put on new on the truck isn't working again. Saturday , friends took me out for my birthday (yes I am too old to say the age) got me drunk and almost arrested for drunk in public.I stopped counting after 18 shots. Oh and my house key broke off in the door. Sunday (my b-day) I spent home puking and generally feeling like ass. Monday....today. I sit here and worry about tomorrow. Tuesday is mine and Daves wedding anniversay( 3 years). So with you I share this. I miss him, I pray at night that I wake up to see him, not the hell and pain I deal with each day.. I miss every little thing about him, from the way he kissed me to cruve in his toes. I just want him back. So I guess God is hates me because I am made at him for taking the man I love away.


Lisa
MsMyclone

 

[abqsy2194]

Re: Bad couple of days...God must hate me

i never personally talked to dave but from what i hear about him he was a great guy..im sorry for your losses...i will keep u in my thoughts and hope everything else in your life works out for you


RIP MYCLONE

 

[gjp]

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God does not hate no one. He loves all his children. Dave from what I read onhere was a great guy. The lord needed him for a reason. I can see you love him and he is waiting for you....
18 shots, sounds like my kind of woman. I usualy lose count after 10 or so.
I too am having a hard time. Just split up with my wife after 15 years of marriage. Spent 8 days living in my company van and now I am in a Motel room till I find a place. Life is hard, but it will pay off when we leave this place, I will and have been praying for you. Jesus will show you in his time why this has happened to you. Stay strong, Lisa. You have a lot of friends here that care about you, Gary

 

[ZMann]

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Lisa! Give me a call when you feel like chatting! I knew about the snake, but 18 Shots? Good Lord! Rodney taught you a little too well on how to take shots.

Talk to you soon

 

[BigBadSmoosh]

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Lisa,

Don't let the bad stuff wear you down, stay strong and eventually things will get better.
take care of yourself and if you ever need to talk, lots of people here will listen.

 

[AUSyTyIN]

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Hang in there, things will get better for you. At least your B-day sounds like it was a blast


Even if God hates you, we still love ya! :tup:

 

[Bill Z]

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Lisa,

The hurt never goes away. It is always there. Learning to deal with it is just that. However you have to learn to deal with it. Dave was strong and you can be strong for him. He wouldn’t want you to wreck your life. Always remember that it is alright to cry.

Do you have any friends that can help you without taking you out to get drunk? In your best interest, you shouldn’t be drinking that much. It worsens everything.

Were you ever mad at Dave? I mean real mad? Dave still loved you didn’t he? God is the same but even better. He will live you more than you will ever know. Also, know that God doesn’t set people to fail. However, God did give us one of the greatest gifts there is. He gave us free will and God respects our free will. It is this free will to choose one way or another. Please choose to get closer to God.

For what ever reason the truck fell, it wasn’t God that did it. I want to believe that God felt Dave’s pain and feels yours. I believe that God cries with us, similarly to the way your folks cried over loosing Dave. I know that it is hard to imagine but remember that God’s son died and God had to have cried when that happened. He knows pain and he knows your pain.

I hope you are talking to someone about how to deal with your pain. Not over a shot glass. Grief and depression will last as long as it takes.

Please, please know that Dave would have wanted you to be strong and carry on with your life. To do that, you have to get help to find ways to manage with the pain that seems to never leave.

Lastly, you have to know that there are many of his friends that are still feeling the pain of loosing Dave. Of cores your pain is greater but pain is still pain and it still hurts.

God doesn’t hate you. Shit happens. God’s love is still stronger. You have to face Him and hold tight to Him. He will help you.

 

[Jimmy]

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Hell I still don't know what to say Lisa.

Just that we all love you and are here for you.

It ain't much,but it's all we got.

 

[SY1616]

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Lisa,

The hurt never goes away. It is always there. Learning to deal with it is just that. However you have to learn to deal with it. Dave was strong and you can be strong for him. He wouldn’t want you to wreck your life. Always remember that it is alright to cry.

Do you have any friends that can help you without taking you out to get drunk? In your best interest, you shouldn’t be drinking that much. It worsens everything.

Were you ever mad at Dave? I mean real mad? Dave still loved you didn’t he? God is the same but even better. He will live you more than you will ever know. Also, know that God doesn’t set people to fail. However, God did give us one of the greatest gifts there is. He gave us free will and God respects our free will. It is this free will to choose one way or another. Please choose to get closer to God.

For what ever reason the truck fell, it wasn’t God that did it. I want to believe that God felt Dave’s pain and feels yours. I believe that God cries with us, similarly to the way your folks cried over loosing Dave. I know that it is hard to imagine but remember that God’s son died and God had to have cried when that happened. He knows pain and he knows your pain.

I hope you are talking to someone about how to deal with your pain. Not over a shot glass. Grief and depression will last as long as it takes.

Please, please know that Dave would have wanted you to be strong and carry on with your life. To do that, you have to get help to find ways to manage with the pain that seems to never leave.

Lastly, you have to know that there are many of his friends that are still feeling the pain of loosing Dave. Of cores your pain is greater but pain is still pain and it still hurts.

God doesn’t hate you. Shit happens. God’s love is still stronger. You have to face Him and hold tight to Him. He will help you.

Damn, that was perfect...well said.

Lisa, do you belong to a good church? It's incredible how ones perspective can change with guidance. If you do not belong to one, find one and see for yourself. God want everyone to be closer to him and this may just be the opportunity. God will always challenge you, it's part of his plan. It's how you react to it that matters. See it as an opportunity to grow. Are you seeing a grief counselor?